Universal Notebook

“Can we understand this self, not by analysing, but by seeing the thing as it is, being aware of it as a fact and not as a theory,not seeking to dissolve the self in order to achieve a result but seeing the activity of the self, the ‘me’, constantly in action? Can we look at it, without any movement to destroy or to encourage? That is the problem, is it not? If, in each one of us, the centre of the ‘me’ is non-existent, with its desire for power, position, authority, continuance, self-preservation, surely our problems will come to an end.”

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Jiddu Krishnamurti-The First and Last Freedom,112,Choiceless Awareness

6 months ago

The surprise of “now”. A welcomed lesson.

Felt very low at the start of today. Got out and about. This helps me find some perspective on things.

Sitting in cafe Nero sending an email , a little child, about 18 months, came up to me with a toy cow. A conversation ensued with lots of mooing and Laughter. Raising my head up from the conversation I found the most of the cafe where being entertained.

This little episode helped me realise the now is only worth anything when connected to the world. My natural fears can often force me to separate from my environment and find excuses to push the now away, dwelling in past and fearing future

Getting home, I quickly jumped it my car to visit my girlfriend and daughter. Unsurprisingly, now had followed me, I spent the evening playing, talking and feeling the joy and love now has to offer, if I let it connect with me.

8 months ago

Today I ran just over 13 miles……..

Today I ran just over 13 miles…..

I took me 2 hours 3mins 54 seconds
It is the longest distance I have ever run.
It helped my vision widen.
I found clarity.
I see the point now.
My single mindedness will provide.
My steps will take me forward.
My life belongs to me.
My community is here.
I feel….ready, now.