The Past month has found me a bit uncertain of everything, went left to its own devices this uncertainty can over exaggerate my internal fears and needs. When scared I feel the need to run,split and, in general, isolate myself from the world.
This fear paralysis needs to be accepted before now can be seen. When feeling fear I crave a different past for an alternate future. This is mere illusion, no evidence exist my past actually creating a future. The only evidence of what I am is here in the now.
Spending a day to ask myself to ask some key questions such as ;
- What am I lacking?
- Why do I fear?
- What tools do I actually have?
- How do I validate myself?
Answering these questions, I discovered I don’t need to be more as that will come; I fear because I am allowed to feel, I am human, be grateful for that; Self Observation and Awareness and ability to take action are the only tools anyone needs; My validation comes when I observe, not when disconnected .
With looking within and accepting the internal reaction application of this discovery falls into place with a natural simplicity.
Now, Rather than looking at external agendas, I find myself just focusing on my immediate purpose, how I can serve and improve my world with true connection. What happens, happens, resistance of fear just leaves the soul in stagnant conflict. Applying acceptance and progression to conflict allows beauty to be discovered where ever I stand at what ever the time.